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Don't Bother by StyxM, literature

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Don't Bother

Voice of anger raising in the air It took me a second to realize it's mine You've reset the rules Now I can't play the game with you Aren't you glad you made me a fool? Look down, I'm buried in the ground Don't bother This is the end of me You could've seen it coming But you refused to see Refused to see I have no more sincerity to spare It's gone, along with the time I spent, trying not to go insane It's my defense mechanism Your victory is vain, darling Look down, I'm buried in the ground Don't bother It's the end of me If you'd taken my warning You would've seen in coming But you refused to see My honesty

Put Me out of My Misery by StyxM, literature

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Put Me out of My Misery

Put me out of my misery This is a death wish You see, My soul is trapped Inside a broken body I write because I don't speak My voice was stolen, stolen As was my freedom Set me free (The world is a bundle of wet cotton that's become my burden) Set me free (For I am a Judas in a world full of Christ) Set me free (I'll light up for the last time and die in your arms) Please, set me free Put me out of my misery I'm a sad freak on a leash You see, My heart is stranded Somewhere no one will ever find I sing because I can't speak No one will hear me when I speak Set me free (I hit rock bottom and I can't climb back up) Set m

See Me by StyxM, literature

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See Me

Are you actually blind of my situation Or did you choose to be? Did you dismiss all of these problems Simply because I am me? You don't know how I feel inside You don't know what runs through my mind... Get up, get out I know you refuse to understand Stay away, stay out I know you won't comprehend Who I am Who I wanna be You're not likely to see Me I didn't try to make you feel estranged It's just that you never seem to care If you look into my eyes now Maybe you'll find, you'll find Get up, get out I won't ask you to understand Stay away, stay out 'Cos you'll never comprehend Who I am Who I choose to be You can close

My World by StyxM, literature

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My World

Standing in this place Our reality is senseless As our senses unreliable Bittersweet, your taste in my heart Painful as the pounding in my head Blissful Breathe with my eyes closed Drown in my spicy oxygen Stinging cold inside my lungs I see you, I feel you Stripped down to the bones A blank spot in a colorful painting Smelling dead roses on the sidewalks Just let yourself fall You're in my world now

Here to Stay by StyxM, literature

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Here to Stay

Look at me Straight into my eyes Are those black holes you see, Or dark chocolate coins? Who are we now, After you got me figured out? Life's not as complicated as you think. ... Don't break the silence It's here to stay - like me I'm not leaving, not now - no way I'm here to stay

Free by StyxM, literature

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Free

My thoughts have their boundaries My imaginations have their limitations My world spins as it's supposed to be My body moves as it's supposed to move But... Touching things that can (should) not be touched A false move cannot be undone Seeing things that cannot be seen Asking am I out of my mind Breathing in poisonous air You've set my lungs on fire So why am I not dead yet? Floating inside the blackness Trapped in reality Moving on, from one mistake to another My limitations are holding me back Now I want out; out... My envy for you is killing me inside Tear your face, scorch your soul Cut me down to pieces I need to be f

The Past by StyxM, literature

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The Past

Lying awake with wandering eyes The four walls that held me from escaping seem to be laughing at me Cursing at every thought that passes me by I'm so far away from where I'd much rather be I look everywhere, everywhere and found nothing I have everything, everything and still my world is crashing Pain is love, pain is a lie I'd fall to an endless well at the bottom of the sky Maybe then freedom wouldn't be so far away I can't chase time and it wouldn't rewind What's left are the bitter memories in the back of my mind Now if I try to break these walls Will I succeed or will I die trying? With the tears frozen behind my eyes Crue

Wake-Up Call by StyxM, literature

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Wake-Up Call

Wake-Up Call Stop and stare Watch me walk away Not a care About what you have to say You've cut me off And tears from yesterday Don't matter anymore Won't matter anymore 'Cos I'm in love with my life Don't give a damn about your lies (You've got the world to back you up But it doesn't change who you are) Yes I'm in love with my life And I'm free 'cos I've paid the price (And I'm not who you thought I was I'm more real than you'd ever be) Erase that fake smile off your pathetic face How long would you keep up this charade? They'd find out in the end And your memories will fade Like it was never there No one will ever care

Let Me Be The Last To Know by StyxM, literature

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Let Me Be The Last To Know

And if you didn't care, why are you so angry? You're not the only one who can see right through me You shine like the stars in the deep, dark sky To love you, I know I need no reason why I wish I can tell you he's not in my heart anymore But I can assure you he has no key to unlock the door Look into my eyes - I can see us Fire and ice dance together - in perfect harmony Untouched by the lukewarm still water Don't leave me again, and don't let go Even if you stopped loving me long ago Don't tell me, because I don't want to know

Need You So Bad by StyxM, literature

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Need You So Bad

Need You So Bad (Alone) Left alone again This room is bright But I feel so dark inside Missing your hands wrapped around me Missing the loving warmth of your body Take me, take me away Before I drown in my own tears Just like the joy that sorrow kills What beautiful, beautiful imagery on my mind We're together and you never leave behind When I'm with you, you're all I need Without you I can't stand on my own two feet I'm alone again Feels so right and yet so wrong inside I think I'm losing my mind Missing your heart beating in my ears Missing the rush of blood in your veins Don't let me slip away Dragged down by my own fea

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Don't Bother by StyxM, literature

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Don't Bother

Put Me out of My Misery by StyxM, literature

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Put Me out of My Misery

See Me by StyxM, literature

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See Me

My World by StyxM, literature

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My World

Here to Stay by StyxM, literature

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Here to Stay

Free by StyxM, literature

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Free

The Past by StyxM, literature

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The Past

Wake-Up Call by StyxM, literature

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Wake-Up Call

Let Me Be The Last To Know by StyxM, literature

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Let Me Be The Last To Know

Need You So Bad by StyxM, literature

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Need You So Bad

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Deviant for 16 years
www.facebook.com/theriverstyx
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Ashley M. Carnadie

FINALLY 18!!!

a freak and loves the fact that she is

can't stop writing for her life's sake

what else do you need to know?

Current Residence: Jakarta
Favourite genre of music: Rock, Punk, Metal, Emo, Celtic.
Operating System: Windows
MP3 player of choice: iPod Nano 4th Generation

Favourite Movies

The Sound Of Music.

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Linkin Park, Saosin, Avril Lavigne, Evanescence, Gorillaz, System Of A Down, Fort Minor, etc.

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arts, literature, psychology, humanities, etc.

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StyxM

May 30, 2010

Officially Leaving deviantART

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Yep. That's right. I'm leaving. From now on, my art and thoughts and such would only be posted on: -> Facebook: facebook.com/theriverstyx -> Twitter: twitter.com/imthemockingjay (may change any time) -> Tumblr: katnisseverdeengirlonfire.tumblr.com -> Formspring: formspring.me/mockingjayssing Thanks to everyone who's watched me and fav'd my art/writing :) But... I'm no longer interested in deviantART. I might check in once in a while just to browse people's arts (for inspirations and such) but I won't be online anymore. See you guys, good luck, and keep up the creativity! :heart: XOXO Ashley

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StyxM

Oct 1, 2009

I Can't Stop Doing These Things

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1. Put your MP3 player on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer (questions below) 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS 4. Tag at least 10 friends who might enjoy doing the game as well as the person you got the note from. 1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "FU!" YOU Say? "Hero/Heroine" - Boys Like Girls 2) WHAT'S THE BEST THING THAT'S EVER HAPPENED TO YOU? "What You Need" - INXS 3) WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT'S EVER HAPPENED TO YOU? "Sometimes" - M2M 4) WHAT WILL OPRAH'S NEXT SHOW BE CALLED? "Vulnerable" - Secondhand Serenade 5) WHAT WILL OBAMA'S FIRST EXECUTIVE ORDER BE? "Hit Or M

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StyxM

Feb 9, 2009

The Google Game! XD

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Just something to cover my last journal entry... which was really depressing. Anyway, this game thing was stolen from ~Vaxl (https://www.deviantart.com/vaxl) :XD: Enjoy, everybody~ Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search. A: Ashley needs to keep wearing stuff like this. The more skin she shows, the better she looks. And she should try and get Mary_kate to dress like this two. (Owh. Mary-Kate & Ashley Olsen. Right.) Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search. A: Ashley looks like a mermaid, a stripper mermaid that is picture published by lovelyrunner4. (:o) Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search. A: Ashley says Newcastle no longer for s

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GuitarSapir

Nov 26, 2010

what's up?????

StyxM

Nov 29, 2010

Hey you, I don't use deviantART anymore. how about yourself?

GuitarSapir

Nov 29, 2010

yeah i barely use it too lol but i love to get back her sometimes and see all the great people i use to talk to , you know..
im doing fine. at home finallY!